My messed up life (Adopted by Aphmau)
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Last published Sun, Oct 15, 2017
This is my first book, it is probably really bad, but I hope you enjoy it anyway.
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Follow the story of Sasha as she goes through her life running into many obstacles on the way, gaining and loosing allies, betrayal, and facing her troubled past.
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When she was just five, Sasha lost her life as she knew it. Her parents and her closest friend Liam.
After this, she is sent to an orphanage, where she spends the rest of her childhood and most of her teenage years,
A few years after she is adopted a war breaks out between her gang and another. But what surprises her the most is the leader of that gang.
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WARNING: In this book there is suicide, cutting and depression. If you are sensitive to anything like this, read at your own risk.
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This was just a short description of that goes on in the book. Once again, I hope you enjoy my book. I think that is all for now. So until next time...
Maya out.
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