When Time Runs Out

How could this happen? I’m collapsed on the floor in the middle of the living room, his jacket crinkled in my arms. It faintly feels warm with his ghost. He was just here. In the shock tears fall from my eyes, and cloud my glasses. I rip them off and throw them across the room. No. Idiot. Idiot. How could this happen?!
“Mama…” I hear a whisper. I turn sharply and my eyes widen to see Sasuto standing in the doorway.
“Sasuto…” I murmur the name stumbling from my mouth.
“You’re not supposed to be home this early.” I turn away from him holding the jacket to my chest. "Mama?”
“Sweetie…” I whisper. “Your papa…-"
“He’s not on another mission is he? He said he would say bye! He’s such a liar. He said he would!”
“Sasuto!” I grabbed his hand.
“Mama…?” He says softly his eyes turning wide seeing my tears. “What...happened to papa?”
Tears stream down my face and I can't control them. Even in front of my own son, a space ripping in my chest. The place where my heart used to be.

“You’ll be home for dinner, right?”
“Absolutely."
“Oh...uh...really?” Something dark crept into his eyes.
“Yeah.” I said examining him closer concern starting to creep up on me. “Is that a problem?”
“No, of course not. Sasuto will be happy that you’re home early. I think he’s got his shuriken test today…”
“He does.” I smiled. Even though I’m not home often I watch over him all the time. He’s very much like his father. Always loud; making a fool of himself. “I’ll congratulate him.”
“Good. I’ve uh...gotta go now.”
“What for? You don’t have-”
“I’ve got a meeting with your dad actually, ”Scratching the back of his head. “Not sure what it’s about. But I should be home before you. Oh, and Sarada?”
“Yeah?” I turned.
“I love you. You know that?”
“Of course.”
“Alright.” He said blushing red. “Just double checking.”

“Sakuto…” I cried into the jacket. “Your papa...he’s…”
“Mama?”
I force myself to meet his eyes, the pain shaking me from my core. “Your papa is gone.”