My Depression Journal [personal]

I don't want to burden my best friend although he has assured me it is all right. My other friends have their own problems which are enough and I don't want to add my problems on them. My parents dismiss me whenever I try to reach out for them. That's why I decided to write my bottled up feelings out on here.

Please, believe me, I am not lying. I turned to my friends who only expected me to be happy. I turned to my family who took my lightly and mocked me. And now I have no one to turn to, no one but strangers.. So please, I beg of you, don't give me negativity. I have enough of it already. I swear I am not seeking attention, I want it from my family who can help me through this; not strangers. I am faking nothing. I hope you understand. Thanks a lot..