Last Goodbye

You say you like me…so why do I feel unwanted? Why do I feel as if it’s all a lie? You make me happy and all but when it comes down to it I don’t believe a single word you say anymore. I’m only going to believe you or anyone else by their actions from now on. I really do like and care about you a lot and you cross my mind every single day. I just wish I knew if your feelings are true or not. Cause honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I love talking and hanging out with you, you make me really happy…but at the end of a really bad day, you’re the thought that makes me shed the most tears. Not because you’ve maybe hurt me…because I think of all the things I want us to be doing and all the things I want you to be saying that will never happen. I don’t even know why I like you. I don’t even know why you like me, if it’s true that is. I know you’re getting annoyed with all my doubts about you, us and myself but it’s part of who I am. I am a very doubtful person with low self esteem and confidence. And you can tell me that I’m beautiful and all that but I’m never going to really believe you. I don’t know what it will take to get me to believe that about myself. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to think that about myself. But just cause I don’t think about myself like that doesn’t mean I don’t like to hear it every once and awhile. I mean if I start to hear it enough I might actually start to believe it…but then again I’m not sure.