I've Loved You Since 7th Grade

I'm 15 turning 16 soon I'm in 10th grade and I've loved one of my friends since 7th grade no one found out until eighth grade.

I wasn't really close friends with this girl in 7th grade in fact I really doubt that she noticed me. 8th grade came and thanks to one of my friends she found out that I had a crush on her, he's a really good guy thank you so much man. I was always really shy when I was around her and could barely talk, always getting my words mixed up, I would always studder in mid sentence or something like that. Always acted weird around her and she for some reason always brought a huge smile to my face, back then I didn't know how to control my smile, but the more we hung out the easier it became.

7th and 8th grade were alright, 9th grade was cool up until October 20,2015. It shouldn't be a bad day cause that's my cousins birthday but I did the most fucked up and stupidest thing ever to the girl I liked. Its past a year now, and I still hate myself for it because I hurt her and broke the trust I had with her.

currently in 10th grade and the year isn't starting off so well I don't really feel like I belong here on this earth I just feel like I'm a waist.

This probably wont be interesting to anyone but it's my way of letting how I feel out, not by sharing it cause this is my first time writing about myself on wattpad. But by writing period, and lately just writing it in a journal or diary isn't working. Don't see how this will but just trying something new.

EVERYTHING in this story is based off of real events. Most of this is also based off of memory so it might not make sense at first.

(don't know how long these chapters will be or how many there will be.)