cynic

cynic

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Ongoing5m

Last published Fri, Apr 21, 2017

depression lgbt love

i find it hard to believe that the human race isn't ultimately selfish. i certainly don't deviate. trigger warning: emotional abuse, suicidal thoughts, self harm

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