Conflicting Emotions
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Last published Sat, Jul 25, 2020
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"As long as you are not seeing through the eyes of your heart you are not really seeing anything."
That is one thing I believe in and that's what led me here to this.
Just some words tied with teenage emotions and an overwhelming sense of responsibility towards the entire human race.
The hatred toward others, belittling oneself, negative perception towards almost everything in life and just...... not being real to self, all of this and so much more is harrowing.
Here is just a small effort to voice out all that most of us go through.
Happy Reads!
All the love. S.
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{poetry : completed} "𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐥𝐤𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐞." in a tiny corner of the world, but in the vast corner of my imagination, this is my paracosmic delusion, something that i've created out of indignant, dejected and euphoric emotions. each word in this book constitutes my delusional nightmares, the ones that i know aren't really there, yet i write about them anyway. this is me, my barest and deepest feelings, and my monstrous thoughts. ✦✦✦ {all rights reserved || ©2021, ashe} {published on may 30, 2021} {cover designed by @paracosmic_being} {peace \/}
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