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Beside you 5sos (boyxboy) (Malum, Lashton)

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Michael is suicidal
Calum is closeted
Ashton has anxiety 
Luke is anorexic

Calum is a jock who has always been popular but has a secret he's hiding from everyone. When he meets Michael he falls in love he decides to keep it a secret in fear of losing his popularity. He is able to suppress his affections for a while but suddenly he finds himself wanting more with Michael then secrete kisses.

Micheal once was happy and free, never shedding a tear, but when his mother died in a horrible car accident two years ago he became depressed, suicidal, and started cutting. He is better now with the help of his best friend Ashton but he still has the bad habit of cutting. When he meets Calum his whole life turns upside down. He both wants to shred his hole body and never cut again at the same time. This boy confuses him like no other but when he wants to keep it a secret he has no choice but to obey. 

Ashton has had anxiety attacks since the time he was seven when his dad started beating him. Around three years ago someone found out and Ashton was taken away. His best friend Michael and his family took him in. He is now going to college and is hoping to make a new start but his anxiety starts to get the best of him as the stress of college thickens. Maybe his new friend Luke can help him more then Ashton knows.

Luke was bullied all his life for being fat. He would come home from school crying into his mother's arms. He became so depressed that he stopped eating all together. One day he looked in the mirror and realized that he was losing weight. He stopped getting bullied but still continued not to eat unable to shake the disease. He soon became hospitalized and started to eat again but after he got rejected by multiple collages his self esteem went down  and he stopped eating. After meeting and falling in love a guy named Ashton he quickly realizes that he is more than what those people say.

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Your the reason// Mashton (DISCONTINUED) by -alleyways

-"Michael, who did you write that song about?" -"That I can't tell you, but I can tell you this 'Its about someone important in my life, that I love'" Ashton is depressed. He has been his whole life. The only friends he has are three boys. One with raven black hair named, calum. One with blonde named, Luke. And one with red(For now) named, Michael. He thinks no one loves him, not even his friends. They know he cuts, they know his story. What if someone does love him though. Michael has had a crush on the dirty blnde, curly headed boy for as long as they met. He never had the guts to say it, so he wrote it. He was scared one day that he would loose Ashton, and didn't want that happening. He wrote a song called the only reason. It was about ashton. How he was scared, was there something in the past you may be asking. Well yes there was, but ashton doesn't remember so there was nothing he could do. "When I close my eys and try to sleep, I fall apart and find it hard to breath, Your the reason, The only reason. Even though my dizzy head is numb I swear my heart is never giving up, Your the reason, The only reason" He wrote that song about ashton, bit there was something he was hiding. Not only his love, but his problem. Yes the boys have known him for years, but he hid something from them, He got abused by his father at a young age, and when he turned 18 he made sure he moved out. He cut. and still does. What makes him do this? Well, he has flash backs to that horrid time in life, and he see's ashton everyday looking sad, depressed, and sometimes not eating. He see's ashton's cuts and scars, and is scarred that he wll lose him. So one day when the boys are sharing song books, someone stumbles across 'The only reason'. Now that the boys found the song what will they ask. Most of all, will the person it was written for, find out? Read the only reason on wattpad to find out more. /////All rights reserved. Please DO NOT steal/////If stolen please tell me//////

The Irwin Chronicles//lashton by writer_of_stories33

While on tour Ashton has been struggling the past couple of months, while no one seems to notice, until Luke does one day. Luke who has started drinking again struggles to contain his back and forth mindset with his feelings towards Ashton and his own issues. Luke's battle with substance abuse and Ashton's declining mental health, mixed into their already crazy lives, starts a horrible downhill spiral for one of them. Trigger warning This book contains graphic descriptions and feelings that the reader may be trigger by, please read at your comfort level, this book is also incomplete and I haven't edited the chapters at the top to contain trigger warnings yet. -work in progress- Started in 2017 and picked up again in 2024. I feel like my writing has changed a lot since 2017, very unedited, just something for me to do/ keep me occupied.

Save You (Lashton AU) by _sonjay

Ashton is only 18, yet seems to have many problems. Depression and insecurities being one, and his agressive, over protective boyfriend being another. Maybe Daniel, Ashton's long time boyfriend, isn't the best and maybe he's the cause of Ashton's problems. But what happens when Ashton bumps into a cute blonde boy one day that automatically finds out about Ashton's terrible relationship and wants to help out in the worst way possible, even if he has problems of his own? Will Luke be able to save Ashton before things get worst? Or will he doom his own life trying to help him? Then again, life isn't really fair. (Inspired by the song "Save You" by Simple Plan) - WARNING: triggering and drug involvement. (Side of Malum) - Started: 06/10/16 Ended: 09/04/17 - ** THIS STORY ISN'T FULLY EDITED. UNDERGOING MAJOR EDITING AT THE MOMENT**

Fix the Broken»Lashton (editing) by maydaymay0

Ashton was a quiet kid, he kept everything to himself. He had no friends but lots of internet friends.His best online friend was Michael. They both played lots of video games and video chat. Also Ashton had a suicidal account on tumblr. He didn't tell a single soul not even to his best friend. Luke was outgoing and very curious.One day he found Ashton's account.He was just searching what 'anorexia' meant then he saw Ashton on the hashtag. He look at his page and felt sick. Ashton was so skinny and had cuts almost all over his body. He wanted to help him but didn't know how. He couldn't tell no body because he doesn't have any real friends. Luke got an idea. He created a tumblr account and decided to talk to him online. He hoped this would workout. Luke wanted to Fix the Broken

Fallible Creatures | Lashton by superbloomseason

Ashton's managed to evade the public eye for the most part after his turbulent exit from Hollywood years ago, only to be dragged back into the spotlight all for a long owed favour, that favour? Playing boyfriend to a singer taking a nosedive into a downward spiral. [ashton centric, lots of angst] [side malum] • inspired by -Night-Stalker- 's fic popstar

The Source || Lashton by hemmonstar

This was made centuries ago. Okay, last year, but my writing has improved so if you want to read some cringey shit read this lol. "Why am I such a Fuck up?" "You're not," "If I wasn't the love of my life would love me back!" He didn't know what to do anymore, it seems as everything's gone down the fucking drain for him. He can never have a smile on his face without feeling like he's forcing something on him. He knows he's a disgusting faggot who's gay and he doesn't really give two shits when he's high and taking heroin to take away the pain which is life. He doesn't give a fuck when he's slicing his wrists feeling blue in his blood. He doesn't really give a fuck about anything anymore, just the littlest things like the fans and his band mates. They don't know about his secret that has somehow fucked up his life. He gives a shit about one thing though Luke Hemmings. And it's hard to know that the one thing you care about, you can't have. When Luke finds out about this, he didn't know he's the source of the pain, it hurts him so much knowing that he wants to help him, but while he's helping him it's destroying Ashton more.

The Good Side [Completed] by honeyedlashton

A Lashton story: In the beginning of a new chapter of his life, Ashton deals with the traumas of his past. He uses them as the foundations of his decision making towards a brighter happier future. Perhaps someone else is helping usher him in the right direction to get out of his dead end job and pursue his lifelong dream: owning his own restaurant. The future looks bright for Ashton-with the help the people closest to him-but there might be a few bumps along the way. Or A short fic where Ashton works at a sandwich deli, and Luke works at the Frozen Yogurt shop next to it. This is a mainly Lashton fic with some soft Malum (and TW major character death)

Abigail by hmarieh1218

(In editing) She's depressed. She's anorexic. She's suicidal. She's insecure. Abigail has grown up with her three brothers and James, never meeting her parents, who abandoned her at birth. Her brothers were left to take care of her and keep a roof over their heads. Everyday they struggle to take care of Abigail, while working to keep them in their home. Life for them is hard. Life for Abigail is even harder. She has a dark mind and not by choice. Somewhere along the way she's developed these feelings of loneliness and hopelessness. Everyday is a struggle for her and just getting out of bed is a success. She meets Zach, a bad boy with a bad reputation. He starts off as a tutor, just to help her out, out of pity. But eventually feelings get involved and Abigail finds herself liking a boy for the first time in her life. Things get serious and she somehow learns about his drug dealing business. Everything gets hectic and Abigail doesn't know what to do with her life anymore. Or if she even wants to live.

Amnesia [Lashton] Sequel to YDHMC by danyulaintonfiyah

"Hey, Ash. You don't remember me. I'm your boyfriend, Luke. We're in a band, with our best mates, Calum and Michael. You... uh, well you're suicidal. That's what got you in here. You tried to kill yourself. But you don't remember that either, do you? Huh, the doctor says you might never remember these things. Ever. I miss the times where you were too shy to say,'I love you' unless I said it first. But, I guess, in a way, this is a good thing. I might have lost you, but now you don't remember what you hate about yourself. In itself, that's good. Now I don't have to see you hurting. But now, everybody has to see me hurting. I miss you so much, Ash, but I can't tell you that. It'd freak you out, and then, I'd have lost you for good. I'm just going to have to hold on to the slight possibility that you'll remember me to get myself through this, Ash, because, otherwise, I don't think I'll be able to handle this. I love you, Luke x." ~Please read the first book first 'You Don't Hear My Cries

Pictures of You [Completed] by honeyedlashton

A continuation of Souvenir... In the months following the incident of Souvenir, Luke has moved fully from Brightwitch to Brooklyn with Ashton. And now life is a party with Michael, Calum, and the rest of his new friends. However, Luke has quickly realized that maybe the glamor of it all is starting to fade, making him want to dive deeper into the lifestyle as if to hold on to how it felt when it was new. But since Ashton takes him traveling for work, Luke is forced to be around exactly what Ashton's job is, and the dangers that come with it. Luke has to quickly decide who he is and what he wants. He forces himself to take a longer look at the person he was and who he'll become if he chooses to keep following his self-indulgent path. TW: this novel talks about topics like drug use, addiction, eating disorders, and s*icidal thoughts and actions.

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Your the reason// Mashton (DISCONTINUED)

-"Michael, who did you write that song about?" -"That I can't tell you, but I can tell you this 'Its about someone important in my life, that I love'" Ashton is depressed. He has been his whole life. The only friends he has are three boys. One with raven black hair named, calum. One with blonde named, Luke. And one with red(For now) named, Michael. He thinks no one loves him, not even his friends. They know he cuts, they know his story. What if someone does love him though. Michael has had a crush on the dirty blnde, curly headed boy for as long as they met. He never had the guts to say it, so he wrote it. He was scared one day that he would loose Ashton, and didn't want that happening. He wrote a song called the only reason. It was about ashton. How he was scared, was there something in the past you may be asking. Well yes there was, but ashton doesn't remember so there was nothing he could do. "When I close my eys and try to sleep, I fall apart and find it hard to breath, Your the reason, The only reason. Even though my dizzy head is numb I swear my heart is never giving up, Your the reason, The only reason" He wrote that song about ashton, bit there was something he was hiding. Not only his love, but his problem. Yes the boys have known him for years, but he hid something from them, He got abused by his father at a young age, and when he turned 18 he made sure he moved out. He cut. and still does. What makes him do this? Well, he has flash backs to that horrid time in life, and he see's ashton everyday looking sad, depressed, and sometimes not eating. He see's ashton's cuts and scars, and is scarred that he wll lose him. So one day when the boys are sharing song books, someone stumbles across 'The only reason'. Now that the boys found the song what will they ask. Most of all, will the person it was written for, find out? Read the only reason on wattpad to find out more. /////All rights reserved. Please DO NOT steal/////If stolen please tell me//////