[UNEDITED] Tears of the Drowned Book 1
31 parts Complete MatureI've always wondered what it would be like to drown, until the day I died. The fear of fighting, struggling to break the surface, just to get one last breath of air. The panic, the terror, the hopelessness, all rushing in as the water fills your lungs. It's a thought that haunts me, even now.
Stiles from Teenwolf once said, " You know when you're drowning, you don't inhale until right before you black out. It's called voluntary apnea. It's like no matter how much you're freaking out, the instinct to not let any water in is so strong that you won't open your mouth until you feel like your head's exploding. "
That's how I felt when I was dying. The irony is that I never died drowning in the water. I died gasping for air on the floor of my bedroom, afraid that when I stopped breathing, that would be the end. There would be no afterlife, no heaven or hell. I remember clutching his hand, sobbing, and telling him how afraid I was, and how I didn't want to die. I remember him holding me, telling me it was okay to be afraid.
I never drowned, but I knew what it felt like - fighting against all odds for one last breath of air. Until my vision darkened and my head and lungs felt like they were about to explode and then, finally, I gave up and let the water fill my lungs.