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When I was young I only knew what I thought was happiness. Cool Bestfriend. Great at sports. Good grades. Kinda popular. Loving parents. I had a mentor who I looked up to, and some day wanted to be. Who even knew me better than my very own bestfriend. I was a very bright and happy person. And then he died and my world was turned upside. Where I used to see the light only darkness would show. From there it only got worse. 
  
  My "Cool Bestfriend" ditched for more popularity, when I needed her most. My secrets released for the entertainment of the public. Becoming the biggest freak show of the entire school. Bad luck followed me around like rain cloud. I had to change how I was on the outside to protect myself on inside, but with your ex-bestfriend being the meanest most popular bitch in school it's kind of hard. I always sat alone. I never thought anyone really wanted to be my friend. You could say I had trust issues. Well, issues in general. What's worse is that it's almost five years and I am still in the same spot I was in, frozen and unable to most past or beyond his death. I was and am clearly still traumatized. 
     
  But everything I had known for the five years changed when Lukas Campbell entered my life. 
  
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  I AM TERRIBLE AT WRITING DESCRIPTIONS GIVE MY BOOK A CHANCE PEOPLE! IT IS PROBABLY THE SHITTIEST THING YOU WILL EVER READ BUT YOU KNOW....All Rights Reserved

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