Pleasurable pain MxM boyxboy manxman (ON HOLD)

Hi , my name is Johnny and I'm a 21 year old , working in the sex industry and don't get me wrong it's not prostitution , it's the BDSM business and I work at a club for members only and I'm a free sub , that stands for submissive by the way just in case you didn't know and I'm a huge masochist . I can probably get of on pain more that anything else and to be honest I've tried vanilla sex before but it wasn't cutting it to be totally truthful . I would never do it again just because I can't get hard when I'm treated like some girl and it's all gentle and sweet . I need dominance to keep me in place and pain to bring me pleasure . I am also the manager of the club and bartender and I have a streak . Although I'm a submissive and masochist , I always tend to do things to piss my masters off and keep getting disowned one after time , so right now every now and then I sleep with someone but not often mind you . oh you guys are such pervs ! don't worry I like pervs like myself . Currently I'm looking for someone to settle down with and that can satisfy me both body mind , heart and soul and they can keep me in hand and tolerate my defiance streak . Is that so much to ask for ? don't answer that , I already know the answer to that question , it's very very hard