Oblivion

When the only thing that is left is for you to cry, don't.
When all your hopes vanish, focus.
When all your reason to stay strong makes you weak, stand tall.
When you don't have any faith left to go on, pray.
But, when all your reason to stay alive is gone, die!

Life has fuck me up big time.
I wanted to do plenty of things but, I have failed to even start.
There is plenty of things I already started but I have failed to finish.
Everything I do seems so worthless in the eyes of many.

I have lost all my courage, hopes, and dreams and drive to even do something,
Every time I start doing something I suddenly lose every reason why I am doing it.
I do not know what I really want to do.
Failed to even make a dream, afraid to even hope
And, terrified with the future that awaits me.
I really don't know any more if living is still worth it
When I thought a door just opened for me becomes visible,
As I enter into it I become a prisoner of my own illusion
Being tarnished, whipped, and punished becomes a cycle
Making me believe I am just nothing but a mistake.

The unending pain is killing me,
Making me want to just die,
I wanted to talk to someone but I am afraid to be judged.
And, all I could do was wait to that divine person to just kill me.
I already lost my faith to that Lord they say exist.
If there is really a God above
I wish for him to just take me. NOW! PLEASE!