Diary - When will the pain end...
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Last published Tue, Apr 14, 2020
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"Everyone is hurting in some way. Mental, physical or emotional. It's not our fault that we are human. We're just born that way. I can't remember the last time I truly felt happy, it's been too long".
Why can't all the pain and agony just end some how. I want to be happy and live my life but, lately I just want to end it all.
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