The Anxious Conscious
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Ongoing5m
Last published Tue, Oct 18, 2016
The POV is from my consciousness, telling my thoughts and revealing what it is like to think with anxiety. What it is like to be a 16 year old and have all these exciting, new things happen and still be unsure of their validity. Between my unsettling past, my love ventures, my aspirations, and my friendships, I will give you insight to my thoughts and I hope you can relate to the style of my thinking. And know that you're not the only one who thinks in this critical, unflattering way.
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