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Forever Enigmatic

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Reads 244,381
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Parts 36
Time 4h 14m

"Distracting myself is the only way I can survive." 

Sierra Jenkins didn't think she'd escape the darkness unharmed, but there she was walking into The Gain trying to live a normal life. Just when she thinks everything is too good to be true, she's slapped in the face with an increase in her rent that plummets her back into the depths of darkness. Working double shifts, pulling all-nighters, and working out to escape, she loses herself trying to make ends meet. Her body takes hit after hit as she pushes her limits, but she masks it all with a deceiving smile. 

But Kyle sees right through it. He knows what it's like to suffer in silence and he doesn't want to see the only trainee that sticks around slowly deteriorate herself. 

Anxiety-ridden, emotional, and draining, the real life struggle of a college student trying to survive.

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Patch Up

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