What I have became who I am now..

Hello there, I was born as a good innocent child full of hopes and plans for future.

The way I view the world, it was colorful.
But all colors were drained as everything happened slowly.
Everything seems to change, except....me.

Getting bullied by the whole school, parents telling you get over it, rumors spreading fast.
I couldn't do anything.
I was shy, very shy back then, couldn't make a single friend.
Being teacher's pet was the only thing i could do, at that time.

As I went to high school, i met her.
When I tripped over a rock on the first day for the first year's ceremony, everyone just laughed.
'Yeah, just great way to start my new life in high school.'
"Hey," someone called, "You okay there?"

I looked to see her bright smile with her her hand out to me.
I was shocked.
It was my first time that someone helped me.

She and I became best friends.

She would smile no matter what, even though she had her own problems.
She was a sun that dragged me back to light.

Her name is ............ (I'm gonna call her 'Bright sun')
She was there when I needed her.

But she isn't here anymore, she has left my side without a word....or more like I left her behind in the past.

She had died.
To be honest about 304 people died in an incident.
Only 172 have survived.
I was one of the ones that have survived.

I wasn't there when she needed me.
I was being an ass to her when she was nice to me.
Couldn't say good bye bye to her.

Because she saved me again sacrificing herself for me.
She was so young, she was only 16 years old!

Death took her away instead of me.

PS This is based on real story that actually happened to me last few years.

Updating either 16th or 25th
These numbers aren't random, mean something important to me.

Thank you.