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An eerie tune played in the background as I felt a wet and slippery tongue like roughness run along my arm. I tried to pull away but the ropes that were used to bind me were preventing just that, movement. My mouth was gagged with some feign cloth and my saliva soaked into it, causing my mouth to dry out. I could feel my wrist bruising from the ropes above but I didn't care; I would break them if I had to, I would do anything in order to get far away from whoever is doing this to me. Another wet stroke trailed up my neck. Nausea washed over me as the realization of what was bound to happen hit me... It was going to happen again tonight... 

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Caged By Him by moonchild80

"WHY CAN'T YOU GET IT INSIDE YOUR HEAD?" He trapped my trembling body between his arms and slammed his fist into the wall. I flinch at the sound as I feel tears forming in my eyes. "I'M SICK AND TIRED OF YOUR CRYING. JUST ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU'RE NEVER LEAVING. THIS IS YOUR LIFE NOW, WITH ME" He spits, anger consuming his voice as I push myself further against the wall. Shutting my eyes closed and turning my face to the side as I do. Moments later, I feel his rough hand on my waist and his finger grazing my cheek. "Look at me, love." His hand grips onto my jaw, his thumb playing across my lower lip. He turns my face to meet his as I lower my gaze to the floor. He lowers himself to my level and I feel his breath fanning my cheek causing my breathing to become unsteady. "I love you so much, darling. But you need to learn. You need to learn that you won't be going anywhere. You're mine." With that being said, his other hand slides down to my waist "Your entire body, your mind, your soul. All mine." All I could do was tremble at his touch. How can someone so beautiful be so heartless? ~~~~~~~~~~ All a 19 year old Aurora Shaw wanted to do was work to make a living and volunteer at the orphanage. Unfortunately for her, ruthless and cunning 26 year old Mafia leader and billionaire Tristan Black had other plans for her. He's been waiting for the perfect moment to kidnap her and finally make her his queen after 2 years of watching and stalking her every move. He'd kill anyone who gets in the way of getting what he wants. What will happen when he ruins everything she wanted and forces her to marry him? Will she escape and resist him? Or will she submit and accept her fate?

Bad In Love by Dreasavagesquad

Mask on... No identity. "Who are you?" I asked after the enchanting dance we just had. "You'll never know" he said. It was a party where everyone was masked. But there was something about this one person. Something enchanting , something magical, something intense, something that made her want to see him again. The way he held her close. The way they both moved in sync to the music. The way his eyes never left hers. The way her heart speed picked up every time he was around. The way she was nervous and couldn't help but look at him. But he wasn't all that different from her. . She was abused, so was he. She had nightmares, So did he. He was darkness, she was the same. His past was evil, hers was filled with cries. The things he did were unspeakable and unforgettable. She was innocent, he was not. He wasn't good for her. She tried to make peace, he was war. She wasn't feeling, he was DEAD. As she left the party she looked back at him one more time. "Will we see each other again?" she asked. "Certainly" he said kissing her knuckles before he disappeared into the night. She thought she would have never seen him again but then. "Your back" she said. "Yes I am" he said. "But your not yourself" she said. "I'm a monster" he said before he attacked her. "I want to know who you really are" she said. "If you knew you would run" he said. "Shhh.. Just one more" he said as he kissed her lips and was so wrapped up with the innocence present in her eyes. "Hold me" she said looking deep into his eyes. "Don't leave me" she said. "I can't stay" he said. "Why are you leaving?" she asked crying. "Don't worry we'll meet again" he said and walked down the lonely dark halls. "BYE" she whispered.

Sin and Obsession by Lustvibing

"Why do you provoke me Rose," he said "Do I need to bury myself deep in your cunt to remind you who you belong to" His voice laced with lust his hands trailing to my inner thigh slowly ________________🦋________________ 𝓢𝓲𝓷 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓸𝓫𝓼𝓮𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓸𝓷 ( 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓽𝓻𝓲𝓵𝓸𝓰𝔂) Suffering from amnesia Rose William is trying to find herself, her past, looking for answers nobody knows, but Rose won't stop untill she finds the truth. While someone from the past is watching her in the dark , yearning for her, to hold her, to make her his forever He did a mistake of letting her go .He won't do it again He will make her his either willingly or Unwillingly Highest rankings- #1 in maniac (14/12/21) #1 in mine (17/1/22) #3 in sexscenes (14/1/22) #5 in terror (13/11/21) #12 in psycho(12/12/21) ************************************** The following book is a standalone It contains mature content ,dark theme, dubious consent, violence. [18+] Avoid if u r looking for a lovey dovey story I don't own any gifs, photos that may be used in this book.

Chained Hearts by JaeH475

**BDSM**🔞⚠️⚠️ To submit is simply to forget that you are living in a world of sin. I yelled as soon as the leather whip came in contact with my skin, the chain being tugged with high hopes that it would break. Then came another and I yelled again as my skin burned before bleeding. I sucked air with my eyes closed, this was a strange culture to me. I had never experienced anything like this, my eyes burning as I fought to keep my eyes closed. ~~~•••~~~•••~~~ She came to earth and found a home among the auto bots. A new soul to this world and as a innocent as any sixteen year old could be. She was just beginning to make a home when things turned for the worst. Her time with her new found friends was short lived when she was captured by the Decepticon tyrant and leader; Megatron. His sole aim was to make a good girl bad. Placed under Soundwave's supervision Emerald now realizes how dark and cold the world could be. On the other hand, with her under his control Soundwave realizes he has been on the wrong side. What happens when Emerald falls for the strange? What happens when he realizes he's in love with a girl so young and innocent. Will Emerald maintain her innocence or will she lose her sanity trying to survive in the dark? RELATED TO A WAR'S HAVEN & EPITOME OF LOVE SO PLEASE READ BEFORE ATTEMPTING THIS ONE!!! Rated M for mature. Do enjoy ;)

Nanny Express by kweencie

Sage was left at the alter by her ex fiancé to elope with her sister. She was broken. Would she even find the one or be a victim to more heartbreak?. "If you stand over there you're definitely going to fall" He argued back obviously getting tired of me. Wanting to test his patience doing the exact opposite of what he wanted, I stood on the rock in the middle of the river. "No I won't, stop telling me what to do" I grumbled folding my hand in response he raised his brow at me "seriously you want to act like a child" "I'm not acting like a child I simply w.....arghhh" and I slipped of the rock and into the river. Unfortunately I slipped into the deep end of the river, fortunately the current wasn't too strong, I managed to swim back over to the river bank without much issue and me accidentally drowning myself. "This is the part where I say told you so" "And this is the part where I say if you love your little friends you won't dare" I threatened I was soaking wet, cold and shivering. "It's not little" He leaned down to whisper in my ear "Do you want to take a go" I was flustered but no way was I going to let him win this teasing battle he started. "Don't mind if I do" my lips were on the edge of his as I rained kisses around his face my hands roamed up to his sweater dragging it over his head ,he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close. He whispered my name "Sage" I stared at him with intensity as I reached over to yank the sweater completely out of his hand and start on the buttons on my shirt..... Highest ranking #1 in Trio OMG guysss #2 in actor #3 in adult romance #3 in heartbreak 😭😭 y'all

Kidnapped by Elainthevalley

Never in my life had I imagined that I would be kidnapped. For me, It was going to be just another weekend, but I guess not. ______________________________________________________ " NO PLEASE NO I AM SORRY PLEASE NO I WILL NEVER DISOBEY YOU EVER AGAIN PLEASE NO AHHH " " I AM SORRY PLEASE I WILL DO AS YOU SAY I PROMISE STOP IT PL- AHHH N- AHH PL- AHHH " " IT'S HURTING NO DON'T! NO! REMOVE IT PLEASE!! AHHH I DID AS YOU ASKED ME TOO YO- AHHHHH " I pleaded, begged, cried, but nothing worked in front of them. They are not human; They are monsters, my monsters who never miss a single opportunity to remind me who they are. _______________________________________________________ I thought They would stop If I resist, I thought They would give up If I say No, I thought They would leave me alone If I didn't let them have their way. But I was wrong. They will never stop, never give up, never leave me alone, not until they have me, my body, my mind, my soul, but even if they had it all, I doubt they will let me go. It's like I am his new favorite game which he loves playing because he knows he will always win. It's like I am his new building block, which he loves building only to destroy a second later. It's like I am his new pet which he loves giving punishment to if disobeyed. _____________________________________________________ I think this story, my story will end only with my death ( Tear dropped) ____________________________________________________ Don't trust the book by its cover, Go on, give it a try who knows maybe in the end you fall in love with the book? Because I have<3 ITS NOT A ROMANTIC STORY!! Started - 8.12.2024 Ended - 7.2.2025 Highest position achieved on Hashtags. #1 on Abuse<3 [26.1.2025] #1 on trapped<3 [16.1.2025] #2 on lust<3 [18.1.2025] #4 on Fear <3 [ 14.1.2025] #4 on Torture<3 [5.2.2025] #6 on abduction<3 [16.1.2025] #16 On Evil<3 [ 14.1.2025] #63 on Maturethemes<3 [25.1.2025] #173 on wattpad [ 5.2.2025] #545 on adventure [8.2.2025]

Save Me by LunarDivinity

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Flee the Forest(Horror story) by Fangkun6

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His Prisoner (DISCONTINUED) by ana_r0ses

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Living In The Shadows (Sequel to Dark Corners) Anti X Reader by GraceThings

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Caged By Him

"WHY CAN'T YOU GET IT INSIDE YOUR HEAD?" He trapped my trembling body between his arms and slammed his fist into the wall. I flinch at the sound as I feel tears forming in my eyes. "I'M SICK AND TIRED OF YOUR CRYING. JUST ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU'RE NEVER LEAVING. THIS IS YOUR LIFE NOW, WITH ME" He spits, anger consuming his voice as I push myself further against the wall. Shutting my eyes closed and turning my face to the side as I do. Moments later, I feel his rough hand on my waist and his finger grazing my cheek. "Look at me, love." His hand grips onto my jaw, his thumb playing across my lower lip. He turns my face to meet his as I lower my gaze to the floor. He lowers himself to my level and I feel his breath fanning my cheek causing my breathing to become unsteady. "I love you so much, darling. But you need to learn. You need to learn that you won't be going anywhere. You're mine." With that being said, his other hand slides down to my waist "Your entire body, your mind, your soul. All mine." All I could do was tremble at his touch. How can someone so beautiful be so heartless? ~~~~~~~~~~ All a 19 year old Aurora Shaw wanted to do was work to make a living and volunteer at the orphanage. Unfortunately for her, ruthless and cunning 26 year old Mafia leader and billionaire Tristan Black had other plans for her. He's been waiting for the perfect moment to kidnap her and finally make her his queen after 2 years of watching and stalking her every move. He'd kill anyone who gets in the way of getting what he wants. What will happen when he ruins everything she wanted and forces her to marry him? Will she escape and resist him? Or will she submit and accept her fate?