Undying
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Last published Mon, Oct 26, 2015
My name is Matthew, I fell in love once but fell apart so many times. I'm alive but finding it hard to live. I may seem weak, because she made me this way and I am defenseless against the pain she left me with. Not because I don't have balls, because I know I do. But because when you love someone and gave that person your all, once they're gone you'll never be the same person you were. You're the bits and pieces of what used to be. And just when you think that you're irreparable, someone will come along who's as broken as you are and make you realize why it didn't work the first time. Because when you reach the bottom and see the worst. That's the time when you will realize how beautiful something is no matter how imperfect it could be.
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***Discontinued*** -Grace- Everything was great.. I had the best friends that anyone could ask for, and one that knew me better than I knew myself. We were in love... or so I thought. He took my heart with him to California and I was left a broken girl... how do you fix something that is permanently broken? How do you move on? You don't.. You have to live with it, and you have to be strong. Life goes on, even if you can't. -Jack- I kick myself... everyday. Why did I leave her? The fame... that fortune is nothing without her. I need her but I figured that out too late. She hates me, and I love her. How do you fix a heart that you let down? I had no idea but I was going to try and I was going to try damn hard. I had to fix her, and I had to make her love me again... I needed too. -Spencer- What do you do when all you knew and all that you gave everything to suddenly vanish? Do you sit and cry about it or do you get up and make something out of yourself from the pain? It's okay to feel pain, everyone does, but you gotta stand up and dust off the hurt and keep walking. That's exactly what I did, I moved on. I took my experiences and along with my best friend we wrote and made something of ourselves. But of course when all is well, life throws an unexpected curveball and tries to break you again. This is how I handled it. -Alex- I never meant to do the things I did, we all have those times when we're young and think what we're doing is the best choice. But what I did turned my life around in a matter of minutes. I never thought my choices would come back to bite me in the ass and when it did, it broke my every being. But I'm determined to fix what I broke, even if it means throwing away my pride and making myself look like a complete fool. I'll make it right this time.
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