Love & be Loved {On Hold}

Being alone is hard, and well, lonely. There's a difference between being alone in your room while your family is right outside your door and down the hall, and when the only family that you have is somewhere out, possibly dead. I try not to think like that, I really do. The key word is 'try'. Over the years I have grown accustomed to thinking only the worst. I was never a really optimistic person. How are you supposed to be prepared for the danger or heartbreak that you might have to go through if you're too busy thinking that the world is all unicorns peeing rainbows? I've had to grow up fast in this world, and this is what the world made me. You learn to block out any and all emotions. They only stand in your way. Not even anger can be trusted. Learning to keep a poker face for over three years is an accomplishment I would have to say. I feel nothing at all anymore. Not when I steal something, not when I blow something up, and most certainly when a kill a Labcoat. I have no guilt. I have no remorse. I spare no mercy. "To love and be loved is like feeling the sun from both sides" David Viscott