Suicidal tendencies (Joshler) (not edited)

Josh has attempted suicide multiple times. It never works. He has made a list:

Tie a noose - not when your mother is visiting.
Swallow pills -
1. maybe something more powerful than paracetamol.
2. Ibuprofen and paracetamol = hospital
Main vein in wrist - deeper.
Bridge - water apparently saves lives.
Building -
1. people are curious and act as saviours.
2. Higher building needed.
3. CPR seems common knowledge.

It seems the universe just doesn't want him to die. His roommate and boyfriend (Tyler) don't want him to die either. The problem is it seems the only thing josh has been successful at is hiding his suicidal tendencies from said boyfriend. Long sleeves are easy to wear all the time, also, even though they have been together for many years josh is asexual so there's never seemed to have been a time when Tyler has seen him without a shirt.

All of this is of course until, after living together for all of five months, Tyler, being the curious person he is, finds Josh's list crushed on the bedroom floor (how careless). And, oh, the guilt that consumes a man so happy he has been blind to sadness for so long is simply overwhelming.

Maybe Josh should've been more careful. Maybe Tyler should've been more observant.

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"You are a noose and I need you to unwrap yourself from my neck."

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Warnings - suicide, self-harm, kinda mentions physical abuse (not really but I'll include it anyway), (kinda) emotional abuse, (kinda) toxic relationship

Suicidal!josh

Unhelpful!tyler

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Au