50 Thoughts on My Future Death

My name is Rhett Raine Rose. Many times during my days I find myself fantasizing about my death. Well not really fantasizing but imagining what it will be like. In a way you could say I'm scared of death but what I'm really scared of is pain. When everyone is screaming about the ghost dragging the person down the stairs out of fear of the unknown, I find myself cringing from the pain of each stair dragging across my fragile spine and my head hitting each individual stair. Two months ago I turned fourteen and I find it odd to think of these things at such a young age but everyone has always told me I have an old soul. I've never told anyone of my fantasies. Sometimes they are from the 1800s during the time period of the settlers and others, they're my driver speeding off the road going 70 down the highway. I started doing this out of paranoia after flipping a side-by-side on top of me six months ago. Each thing I do is another way I could experience pain and I spend my hours avoiding these results. Here's a collection of the fifty ways I could painfully die with context if my life.