THE DIARY

Tonight is the same with the other nights, even though she is physically exhausted from her work; it seems that her mind is still full of energy. It won't stop from thinking; the sad part is it only lingers to that one person, one memory and the most painful part of her life. Even though she tries to block those and shut her eyes it still remains there, it keeps taunting and haunting her. Why can't she just move on, it's not that she did not try, she gave her efforts, and it just seems that her mind wants to but her heart won't cooperate. Besides who would want to still be awake up until midnight or wake up in the middle of the night and the cause of that is a ghost from her past that still has a power over her present. She doesn't want her future to be ruined because of her past. Deep in her heart she wants to move on, be happy, and be the same old Yuri. She feels like she lost herself, her identity, when the one person she thought she would share forever with broke his promise.

She used to be outgoing, fun to be with, cool, energetic, caring and kind. Now people see her as aloof, cold, kill joy, boring and not capable of loving or caring. It seems that she's void of any emotions. Sometimes she thinks if she's human after all. She is devastated and broken, but that was 3 years ago. Why can't she move on?