Sorry I'm Not Better ~Phan~
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No.
Never again.
I won't.
I already have done this before.
Why is he making me suffer more?
Why must I suffer?
Out of all people, why me?
Am I just someone he chose at random?
No.
He has a reason.
They always do.
One more.
That is all I can take.
One more.
Then I will snap.
No one stops to help.
They never do.
I am hated.
They just walk by like I am not there.
I am nothing.
I am just a waste of air.
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So I am not going to explain what this is about in here, but I gave you an excerpt of it. But it is a PHAN FICTION!!!! WHOOO!!!
And before you say "Really, another story? You already have two that AREN'T finished." I am aware of that, but really I wanted to put a PhanFiction out there for the Phandom (including me). And believe me when I say I am a HUGE Phangirl! I watch crack vids, edits, I have seen all of their videos, etc. Anyway, I will maintain this I promise! Hope you enjoy the story!
Also, I guess I need to make all my stories Mature because these are the guidelines:
Mature Rating
Mature stories are intended for an audience that is 17 and up. There are restrictions on discovering Mature stories on Wattpad that help ensure they reach the correct audience. A story must be rated Mature if it contains any of the following:
A sex scene (Nope!)
Self-harm themes or scenes (including suicide and eating disorders) (Yep)
Graphic depictions of violence (Yep)
Media containing partial nudity, BDSM imagery, graphic violence, or gore (And Yep the violence part not the nudity)
What do you think? Should I? I don't really know because I do put warnings at the beginning of my stories. I'll have you decide. (Whether I should live or die. Ha....Anyone else know this song?)
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