Smile {A Phanfiction}
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Dan loved his smile. That was probably his favorite thing about Phil Lester.
Although he kept on smiling, Phil was torn on the inside.
Although he kept on smiling, sadness washed over him.
He kept on smiling,
for Dan.
Dan has always loved Phil, but Phil's feelings for Dan have just started. They both have doubts that the other person will ever love them, so much so that the two come up with ways to mask or get over their feelings.
Dan hides in his room, writing about the his dream relationship with Phil.
Phil tries to find a new person to fill the gaping hole inside him where Dan was supposed be.
Will they ever realize what's really going on between them?
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