reasons why

I if tonight is the night I die then so be it. this world is cruel and expectations are nonreligious. so much pain and sadness and I tried oh yes I have and I never saw an out come so I am done yes done for expecting something from nothing. my life is so pain full no ever see that I want to die I never get a moment of happiness because reality comes and ruins it . I might he cry baby but the only thing that put an smile in my face is him he was the only good thing that came out of this dark world and now this thing burns in this shity world so much time and love i have put in this relationship and still no results . my school life is drowning and I am stuck and I am stupid and then I see that the only result is to die so if this is the last night just know that I love you and never asked to be born i never asked to be in my life I am sorry and I love yoh I wish I could be better my tears will not be the only thing that will be dripping