bakakon >.<

Here’s my story,,,,,,,,

- meet this girl and worked as accountant in the same company, lets call her Julie.
- heard (bad) rumors about her but jst ignored it although my other officemates (guy) were eying on her (she's charming though)
- i came to knew her and i could say she was okay
- we became friends and got to know each other day by day
- we go out for lunch and dinner as much as we could
- we became close and introduced me to her family who were very accepting of me.
- i sent her home every night.(bisag layo ilaha)
- i call her parents nanay and tatay and her younger brother ""dodong"" and call her elder sister ""ate"" and yes they were very fond of me and laugh their butt out whenever i talked.
- we understood each other mutually and take turns in treating snacks morning and afternoon.-
- i had cold feet and became confused with what we had. i was asking for a SIGN.
- i tested myself not to talk with her for a week
- it was painful on my part so does with her-
- she was sitting two tables away from mine in the office, so basically i could hear what was going on behind me
- she sent me SMS, called me on my mobile dialed the company trunk line just to be able to communicate with me but i remained ignoring her believing that was what's best for us.
- every night i missed the things i used to do when were together, i really did
- a night before 1 week i told to myself, i should clean up that terrible mess.
- a week passed by and came to a realization, i need her in my life.
- was so excited to come to the office first thing in the morning
- greeted everyone i met along the way
- that day was supposed to be the big day.
- just in time i sat on my table, everyone was congratulating her
- i was wondering what's with all the congratulations
- then an office mate told me that Julie said yes to another guy
- i feel awful and hated myself for what happened, it was all my fault.