Not Okay // Phan

"No, Phil. I'm not okay."
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Dan Howell has leukaemia. He's known for a while, but he hasn't had the nerve to tell his loving boyfriend Phil Lester. In a whirlwind of tears, kisses, and tragedies, Dan decides he wants to go with dignity.

He fufils his bucket list, with the excuse of his YouTube career. Only five months, he decided. Five months before his final plane trip. He knew were he was headed. Switzerland.

((trigger warnings of self-harm, suicide attempts, euthanasia, and possibly mature themes))
you have been warned. i'll try and warn at beginning of chapters too, but no guarantees
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by Cat