Monophobia
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Ongoing33m
Last published Sat, Dec 10, 2016
Monophobia (noun):
The fear of solitude, of being by oneself.
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❝ I thought you just hung out with me because you felt sorry for me. ❞
❝ With a sweet, little puppy dog expression and bright blue eyes like that; honestly? I'm surprised no one else jumped on the bandwagon. ❞
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In which a silent, trauma-induced young adult finds light where he would've never thought to look. Which just so happened to be the mysterious, edgy, but incredibly funny guy from high school who always seemed to be brooding and smoking a cigarette.
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