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Lifetime in Repeat

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abuse dark fiction gay horror lgtb mentalillness romance triggering

Love. Depression. Anxiety. Fear. Suicide. Death. Life. 
  Finding love is hard. Even harder when you are so different from everyone else around you. Always sad and scared of people. However, there is always one person who changes it all. Who makes you want to do everything you have ever been scared of. Make you act like a fool but not feeling like one. But in the back of your mind, you are terrified. 
  Do they mean it? Do they actually love me? No they probably just feel sorry for me? You're just a huge joke to them. The list goes on and on; however, sometimes that isn't always the case.
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   While I write this I want to find someone who will help me write. I'm a novice at this and could use the help. The picture on the book is not mine but it is borrowed, if the artist finds this please forgive me for not finding you sooner. Let me know so I can credit you appropriately  so there is no copy right issues. 
  
  Also, there will be heavy swearing and abuse. There will also be a lot of mental health discussions in this story so while it might take me a while to put up another chapter, I want to be as accurate as humanly possible while writing. So each chapter will have a warning before something happens that is considered triggering.
  
  Lastly, this book is dedicated to a person who has been sitting right in front of me but I was too stupid to see how amazing she is. And I think she may have been the person created for me but time will tell how that goes. Thank you J.All Rights Reserved

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*TW* Contains topics and scenes of sexual assault, self-harm, abuse.* "You know you loved every second of it," I can feel the tears welling up as well as the anger building up within me. I stare at him for a while before I have to turn away from his hungry gaze. "Look I just came here to tell you that I forgive you for what you did back in Cali and I'll take you back," "You forgive me?" I yell. "I did nothing to you. You raped me! You fucking raped me! You have no right to come here and tell me that. You. Forgive. Me. You traumatized me. What you did to me tore me up inside and was eating away at me until I tried to kill myself. And when I told people they didn't believe me. I had to listen to so many people talk about how great a guy you were and how I clearly just regretted sleeping with you. You are a monster. You made me hate myself for something that was never my fault. You have caused me so much pain and suffering," I pause to take a deep breath. "So you don't get to come here to my school and tell me you forgive me. You don't get to make me feel bad about coming forward. The only thing I regret is ever thinking you were a good person." _____________________________________________ Logan Young is a 16-year-old girl about to start her senior year in a brand new town. The past year has been tough and her family moved to give her a fresh start. Her life before the move had been hard and she had been spiraling. She quickly makes new friends and even enemies. She builds up walls to protect herself. But what happens when an unlikely person helps her to tear down her walls and heal. Will she be able to survive in this new place and keep her secrets intact?

lonely (Antisepticeye x Reader) by love_catlings

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The accomplishment of light by JaneDoeDo

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Logan

TW Contains topics and scenes of sexual assault, self-harm, abuse.* "You know you loved every second of it," I can feel the tears welling up as well as the anger building up within me. I stare at him for a while before I have to turn away from his hungry gaze. "Look I just came here to tell you that I forgive you for what you did back in Cali and I'll take you back," "You forgive me?" I yell. "I did nothing to you. You raped me! You fucking raped me! You have no right to come here and tell me that. You. Forgive. Me. You traumatized me. What you did to me tore me up inside and was eating away at me until I tried to kill myself. And when I told people they didn't believe me. I had to listen to so many people talk about how great a guy you were and how I clearly just regretted sleeping with you. You are a monster. You made me hate myself for something that was never my fault. You have caused me so much pain and suffering," I pause to take a deep breath. "So you don't get to come here to my school and tell me you forgive me. You don't get to make me feel bad about coming forward. The only thing I regret is ever thinking you were a good person." _____________________________________________ Logan Young is a 16-year-old girl about to start her senior year in a brand new town. The past year has been tough and her family moved to give her a fresh start. Her life before the move had been hard and she had been spiraling. She quickly makes new friends and even enemies. She builds up walls to protect herself. But what happens when an unlikely person helps her to tear down her walls and heal. Will she be able to survive in this new place and keep her secrets intact?