Lifetime in Repeat
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Last published Sat, Jan 28, 2017
Love. Depression. Anxiety. Fear. Suicide. Death. Life.
Finding love is hard. Even harder when you are so different from everyone else around you. Always sad and scared of people. However, there is always one person who changes it all. Who makes you want to do everything you have ever been scared of. Make you act like a fool but not feeling like one. But in the back of your mind, you are terrified.
Do they mean it? Do they actually love me? No they probably just feel sorry for me? You're just a huge joke to them. The list goes on and on; however, sometimes that isn't always the case.
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While I write this I want to find someone who will help me write. I'm a novice at this and could use the help. The picture on the book is not mine but it is borrowed, if the artist finds this please forgive me for not finding you sooner. Let me know so I can credit you appropriately so there is no copy right issues.
Also, there will be heavy swearing and abuse. There will also be a lot of mental health discussions in this story so while it might take me a while to put up another chapter, I want to be as accurate as humanly possible while writing. So each chapter will have a warning before something happens that is considered triggering.
Lastly, this book is dedicated to a person who has been sitting right in front of me but I was too stupid to see how amazing she is. And I think she may have been the person created for me but time will tell how that goes. Thank you J.
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