The suicidal thoughts
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Last published Thu, Jan 12, 2017
When you read this got to the top and click on the title and press the beginning then school then home. It's so hard to answer, "Whats wrong?" when nothings right. They don't notice my tears, my pain, or when I get bullied, but when I make a mistake everybody notices for days but only my mistakes. What am I going to do? I just can't take it anymore. You love her more she thinks but do you? I don't know. I'm not going to find out either. I'm done..........
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