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Hate is just a word.

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Completed ✅ 

WARNING! This story contains a lot of seriously messed up views on life! Please do NOT try to imitate ANY of the behaviour displayed in this story!

Eric always knew that his life wasn't going to be perfect, far from it in fact! But he never expected things to end up in such a mess. 

The wind ruffles his hair gently as he peered over the cliff top, gazing down into the sheer abyss of what would soon be his end. 

One word runs through his mind. A single word that had haunted his every waking moment. 

Until now. 

Jump...







Disclaimer: to anyone reading this now, I'm not depressed, I DO value my life, I don't self harm for attention and suicide is literally the furthest thing from my mind possible and I'm not going to kill myself! Also I'm not a creepy pervert I'm just good at description and I attended Glossopdale for two years which adds up to total loss of innocence⚠️All Rights Reserved

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