You're Killing Me Inside

Prologue
It's been two or three years already pass, Time is totally fast. I miss the way I look at him, the way I watching him every time he performs on the stage with his band. The boy with a Chinito/ Korean look. His neither a bad boy nor gangster, maybe? Who knows? Even me! don't know a single thing about his personality. I only knew him by person. Confused right? Me too. I know his simple background like, where he lives, who's his family. EVEN CLOSED FRIEND. Well Ms. stop your illusion about that man, he's never coming back to you and never been to you! SO STOP! So why is it still aching on my part? I MUST FORGET HIM, but my STUPID MIND saying YES FORGET THAT IDIOT! but my HEART says NO HE IS EVERYTHING TO YOU!

What will I do?

DICTATE MY HEART AND FOLLOW MY STUPID MIND OR FOLLOW MY MIND AND DICTATE MY HEART?