Growing up
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Ongoing16m
Last published Tue, Nov 29, 2016
Sex , drugs , love , friendship , romance , happiness , sadness , anger , worried , coping , stressed ... so much more I'd like to explain to you because I understand now that happiness ... well let's say that don't get happy because you will most certainly get your heart broken.
It's not a clean break that's fixed , it's shattered and blown into the wind that seems to paint it on those around you.
Falling in love seems like a big thing all the time , even with the "let's fuck then fuck off " kind of relationships that last a matter of hours , or less depending on ... well you get it.
But it's when they come along , if you've never met them ... keep reading , you've got a survival guide in your hands.
If you've met them ... god I'm sorry ... you're holding a scrapbook and a coping guide.
If you are still going through it all , brother/sister you have a lot to learn ... so don't put down this warning guide.
One person can make you hate a whole entire lot of people and it's clever yet truly disgusting ... so friend , I'm glad we met ... please know I'm here for you , so be here for me and feel my emotions spilt on every page ... but don't get sad I'd never wish that on you , stay strong.
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