His Lovely Beast

I remember my mom telling me how mates are supposed to love and protect one another. I also remember her telling me that if my mate truly loved me, then he wouldn't care if I could half shift. There only a handful of us that can half shift and we are looked at, as true monsters that parents tell their kids before they go to bed.

Austin loves me, he's seen my other form and he's seen me kill a man in a crazy state. But see that's the down fall of half shifting; if we aren't careful we could go crazy and kill anything and everything. This feeling when the darkness takes over, is hard to describe. I just know that whatever my half shifting mind is, it's sadistic and crazy. Not even my wolf mind can compare to this...farrell mind. It was like taking a step into the dark days when all we truly were, were cold blood killers.

I mean, there still of our kind that are cold blood killers. But this some how...feels different.

Since my killing of my mother ex lover, I've been closely watched and have even had to be sedated for sleep, in precaution of sleep walking and killing. It's never happened, but I would rather be safe then sorry. August been against a lot of the precautions, because I've had to stay away from him and that's just not done. He's an Alpha and he has every reason and right to be with his mate.

Soon though, maybe we can find a way to help me and I can trust to be in a room alone with my mate. My...Alpha.