yes, i had an episode
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MatureComplete Tue, Nov 29, 201618m
Where my mind goes (which is all over the place). An attempt to ground myself. I'm really up one day, and then down the next. It's alot. this is all I've got right now. my writing style isn't what it was. I barely write anymore. I'm getting older (I guess). I don't know, everything is confusing!!haha
some trigger warnings for the story in general (anger, abuse, self harm, dysphoria, etc).
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