so crumbles.

i am sorry to do this guys. you dont need to read this if you dont want to, but i need to let go of everything that is hunting my mind lately.

what a year, it started amazingly, college was perfect, my dreams were strarting to become true. i was so happy with my life. something wonderful happened and i fell in love with a guy so gentle and so kind that seemed to be the perfect match for me. We dated for a while, i remember everything vividly, every touch, every word, every conversation, every kiss, but soon thing started to crumble down on me. first with college, my grades started go down, i am a perfectionist and sometimes too self critical, so that mean chaos for me. not long after, my heart was broken by the same man i had given all of my love to. things went downfall from there, my whole word was coming down. this past months have been particularly hard, it started with my grades again, nothing unmanageable, but it bugged me a little, i got over that soon enough. i think i need someone that understands that i am not feeling at my best and that i just want someone supports me and let's me cry and express all of my feelings without judging.