Optimistic Angel.

"I'm so sorry Justin, I'm so sorry." I say my fingers fumble in each other's embrace. My throat was tight and dry.

"This boy has laid his heart out to you, you're going to break his heart. You're going to rip him to shreds." I thought, my heart breaking.

"What is it Hajar?" He said, wrapping his hands in mine, his mocha eyes staring back at me.

"Please don't hurt him, please don't hurt him" My heart screamed at me. "Don't say those words that you know not to utter. Love is hard to understand. Your father doesn't see this." My heart and brain argued back and forth with each other.

"I have to go away" I stumbled over my words. I hadn't noticed the tears that were coming from eyes until he brushed them away with his thumbs, staring sadly at me.

"What do you mean, 'go away', Hajar?"

"My father is sending me to Kuwait for schooling, he says I need to focus on my education." I say, looking at the ground, not daring to gaze into his eyes. Looking into his eyes would break me right now.

"You're breaking his heart." The voice in the back of my head spoke. The voice made me angry. Angry at my father for sending me sending me away, angry at Justin because I couldn't be with him, angry at the world that I had failed to acknowledge. I had fallen deeply in love with Justin and I couldn't tell him. Here and now, I wanted to tell him I loved him.