Will I Ever Love Again?
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Ongoing28m
Last published Sat, Feb 25, 2012
I was there, looking in the mirror, Looking at my refelection, wondering how i could let myself get so far. I'd never dreamed about coming this far.. I looked down at my hands and stared at the tub of pills i was holiding, refelecting back to what made me come to this, all the pain he caused me, all the pain i suffered becuase of one sentance. I saw my hands become blury so i shut my eyes tight, holding back the tears. "You can do this, dont back out now. Just think. All the pain will be gone once ive finished this tub. Do it!" I spoke to myself in my head. A wave of sheer anger washed through me, I let out a scream causing my to look once again at my reflection. I connected my hand to the mirror hard so my reflection would disappear and the pain was shooting in all directions through my hand but i took no notice of it, i took a deep and long breath then outh of no where i was fiddling with the tub, finding the seal to open my lock of freedom. I saw the blood dripping into the sink from my hand. The sides of my lips curled and a smirk appeared on my face. I popped open the tub and emptied it into my hand. One last look at the shattered and distorted reflection i put my hand to my mouth and swallowed every last pill. I saw everything disappear, the room becoming darker as time passed. I slid on the floor, smiling, knowing im going to forget everything and the pain will be gone.
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