The nucleus

My life story
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When life is so shitty and you can't seem to escape from it . No one can hear you suffering or maybe they can hear you but watch you die anyways ? All you see is everything so fucking horrible in the world but is it really ? Everyone is out to get you and everyone hates you but does everyone really ? Perhaps not everyone maybe someone or something will save you maybe it will make your existence worth existing on this earth when you think your not worth it . I mean we are just one tiny person on earth and earth is just one tiny planet in this galaxy and our galaxy is just one tiny galaxy in a supercluster of ten to thousands of galaxies in a continuously expanding universe . We really don't matter to this universe but maybe we do on this tiny planet . Maybe there's some one something out there that will cure all the emptiness you feel inside. I need some one or something to end my misery. I need someone, someone's warm touch and soft kind words or I need a star near earth to explode by iron atoms to become crushed so closely together that the repulsive forces of their nuclei create a recoil of the squeezed core - a bounce that causes the star to explode as a supernova and give birth an enormous, superheated shock wave so we can be wiped out for good . All everyone does is make the world an ugly place . There destroying the creation of earth . I want to change the world but how can I do that when I'm not capable of doing such a thing.

WHAT THIS STORY IS ABOUT
*oh yeah btw it's not all about educational science stuff it's about my life and things that happened . It's about my past and even recent things that are happening. Some childhood stories mostly the dark sides just warning you.