Heavens rainbow
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Ongoing3h 12m
Last published Mon, Mar 20, 2017
TRIGGER WARNING!!!
Contains depression, abuse, drugs, anxiety, panic and suicide
*The story is always in Dan's POV unless said otherwise*
My life didn't go how I wanted it to. At the age of 16 you would think I'd be in a relationship, hang out with friends and come home to a nice home cooked meal on the table. You know, what most teenagers do. But no, instead I go home every night to the horror that is my mum.
I don't ask for anything except for death to take me, for I'm too cowardly to end my own life. But whenever I'm in a situation that could kill me, something always gets me out of it safely.
I never thought that one day I would be meeting what this 'something' was.
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