The Only Option Left
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"Some people are just not meant to be in this world. It's just too much for them."
― Phoebe Stone, The Boy on Cinnamon Street
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Suddenly, I don't wanna go again anymore. I do not feel sad or tired or sick or whatever it was like before. I just... Well, I don't know. There's no urge in cutting or committing suicide too unlike before. I'm just, I don't know.
I feel like I'm standing in the middle of a crossroad with cars passing by, not wanting to take a single step off the ground. It's not that I like to be in that place or I'm just too tired to move. It's just that I think, maybe, there's just not reason for me to walk? It's as if I'm in a grey area of life. A blank and barren place waiting for something I do not even know. I don't know. I don't know anymore. I don't and I wont.
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these are one shots and quotes about suicide
this book is not encouraging you to commit suicide
so please don't get any bad ideas
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