"Before we get started, let's just get one thing straight: I'm not the one with the disorder, the rest of the world is.
So what if I'm a psychopath? The only downside to this 'disorder' is the way people freak out when they hear that word. What do you think I am? A serial killer? Okay, maybe I have murdered a few people... but two of them were an accident, I swear!
You may pass me off for a fool, but I've got a getaway plan. It's well thought-out, carefully devised, extremely intelligent, crazy, slightly unethical, probably insane, kind of sketchy, scientifically improbable, unwisely dangerous, impossibly hard, maybe even romantic (if I'm lucky), and it's gonna work. So if you're brave, then you'll follow my adventures, and you'll see how wrong the world is about me.
There's more to me than meets the eye, and one day, someone's gonna see it... if the getaway plan works after all.
And if it doesn't, well let's just say I'm gonna be dead.
But hey, it's worth a shot... right?"
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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