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How a Monster feels

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An in-depth look into the mind of 17 year old Sebastian. Sebastian has never felt wanted- or needed for that matter- in this world. After years of depression, abuse, and utter hatred for himself and those around him, he snaps. Sebastian can't take it anymore...so he does the unthinkable. He could have been stopped, saved, helped. But no one made the choice to actually do something about it. What made him commit such a horrendous act of violence? Did anyone notice the warning signs? Why didn't anybody do anything? Could he have been stopped? How did this...monster...feel? Does he even deserve this label? Read on to find out the answers.

***DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT CONDONE SCHOOL SHOOTINGS, NOR DO I HAVE THE DESIRE TO COMMIT SUCH A HORRIFIC ACT OF VIOLENCE. PLEASE REACH OUT TO SOMEONE OR CALL A HOTLINE NUNBER, IF YOU STRUGGLE WITH SERIOUS THOUGHTS OF HURTING YOURSELF OR ITHERS.All Rights Reserved

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