WAKING EYES

Taunted by lies
under mourning sunrise
seeing life in waking eyes

Ever wished you could wake up from a dream? That's the entire opposite of me, I wished I'd live in my dream. For it is only in my dreams that he is with me, when I open my eyes from a deep slumber, I return to something real that's unrealistic and unlivable.

Sab is my name, and this is my story, whenever I close my eyes I live the life of what could have been.

It was the 23rd of December, the day he died so he could save me, the tears never left me that night, I did not only lose a friend, I lost a life I could have, at age 9 I know he is the one. And he died leaving me broken. It's the first night I dreamed of him, I thought he was just going to say goodbye, but days passed and then months and I felt that nothing has changed. Then my father brought me to a psychiatrist and my mother, let's not talk about that.

To stop the comotion, I lied. 5th of March I woke up and said that he has bid his farewell and I cried a whole awful lot, but the tears weren't a lie, what if he really said goodbye and left me thought haunts me.

We fought in my last dream, and when I woke up, my mother said that my fiance is on his way to the Philippines, anger had the best of me and I agreed to meet him.

OH NO
I slept that night and saw him crying for the first time.

P.S.
Here is the meaning of waking eyes for me, so no rants or anything, I was just inspired by the trailer of the movie the girl in the book, anyways enjoy and please, comment any suggestions, okay sige pwede na din kayo magrant haha, it's nice for you to read this, I'm grateful from the kaibuturan of my puso ng saging :) dejk I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU RIGHT NOW FOR READING THIS! ASPIRING WRITER LANG PO HA HAHAHAHAHA OH AND THE COVER'S ORIGINAL PIC IS NOT MINE, IT'S CONNOR FRANTA'S I JUST ALTERED IT A BIT :)