Taunted by lies
under mourning sunrise
seeing life in waking eyes
Ever wished you could wake up from a dream? That's the entire opposite of me, I wished I'd live in my dream. For it is only in my dreams that he is with me, when I open my eyes from a deep slumber, I return to something real that's unrealistic and unlivable.
Sab is my name, and this is my story, whenever I close my eyes I live the life of what could have been.
It was the 23rd of December, the day he died so he could save me, the tears never left me that night, I did not only lose a friend, I lost a life I could have, at age 9 I know he is the one. And he died leaving me broken. It's the first night I dreamed of him, I thought he was just going to say goodbye, but days passed and then months and I felt that nothing has changed. Then my father brought me to a psychiatrist and my mother, let's not talk about that.
To stop the comotion, I lied. 5th of March I woke up and said that he has bid his farewell and I cried a whole awful lot, but the tears weren't a lie, what if he really said goodbye and left me thought haunts me.
We fought in my last dream, and when I woke up, my mother said that my fiance is on his way to the Philippines, anger had the best of me and I agreed to meet him.
OH NO
I slept that night and saw him crying for the first time.
P.S.
Here is the meaning of waking eyes for me, so no rants or anything, I was just inspired by the trailer of the movie the girl in the book, anyways enjoy and please, comment any suggestions, okay sige pwede na din kayo magrant haha, it's nice for you to read this, I'm grateful from the kaibuturan of my puso ng saging :) dejk I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU RIGHT NOW FOR READING THIS! ASPIRING WRITER LANG PO HA HAHAHAHAHA OH AND THE COVER'S ORIGINAL PIC IS NOT MINE, IT'S CONNOR FRANTA'S I JUST ALTERED IT A BIT :)
Real happiness comes from within but what will you do if you can't find it there? Will you go through everything just to find it? Or will you just settle to what finds you?
Hello guys, if you're here on my page to read this story thank you so much. I'll be needing your help to get this story my very first published novel. Please don't be a silent reader anymore, I'll be needing your thoughts about this story so feel free to comment down your thoughts. Positive or negative man, I'll be very willing to consider it.
Pwede nyo po ako kausapin thru comments, kung may part sa story na nakakarelate kayo, you can share your experiences too. Don't hesitate to let your voice be heard. The world needs it.
You're in pain? You're currently suffering from anything na halos katulad ng sa main characters sa story na to? You can tell me, I'll be very willing to listen and to give you a piece of advice. Let's help each other, let's pull each other up, let's be friends.
That's the main reason why I wrote this kind of story. To talk about the things that people today aren't comfortable talking about. And it bothers me. Because mental illness isn't something to be ashamed of, it's something to be understood. And it's something that needs to be helped. So if you have one, if you're suffering from it, please know that I am here. And I'm willing to help so please let me.
Nobody deserves to feel alone in this world, reach out. Reach out to me, if you think nobody will understand you, your pain, your thoughts, try me. I can assure you I'll understand your pain and I will never judge you for it. So please, let me help you.