Solarium
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  • Reads 756
  • Votes 116
  • Parts 18
  • Time 1h 29m
Ongoing, First published Dec 14, 2016
"I tried to fight him, I promise... "I say to my therapist, my voice wobbling. She looks at me,sympathetically.
" Asta... "She starts but I don't let her finish.
" He was there! I'm not lying, I swear "I scream at her,my voice so foreign even to me. Tears cascade down my cheeks and I wipe them away furiously. 
" It was just a dream, "She says, not for the first time since I had started coming for these sessions....... No one believes me, they have no idea how real it is. 
That was me, seven years ago.When everything changed. After countless sessions of " successful therapy"my parents believed I was better and stopped the sessions.And when the dreams came back, I was brought another therapist,each of them promising to make it stop. I would see my mom's face light up with hope and die a little inside. I was the cause of all this anguish. But then they didn't know the nightmare that relentlessly plagued me...
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