into her phenakistoscope
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  • Reads 2,923
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  • Parts 139
  • Time 2h 13m
Complete, First published Dec 15, 2016
«« when her life was at a halt , 
       an illusion of motion was created and
in her dreamlike state ,
        her reality and her imagination met
and gave her a blurred vision ,
        her phantasmagoria took birth where
her soul saw dreams of a lost world
         in its sleep  »»

" Phenakistoscope - an illusion of motion . Into the illusion of motion of a girl's halted world you'll peek into "

•This will be a little collection of thoughts that peeped through the glass stained window of my mind , of the memories I lived , and of the tales I participated in inside my mind .
These are poetries from a school girl with a backpack on , returning home with so much inside the head , with so much inside her heart , with the memories made each day , with the pain received yesterday , with the questions wondered -whys and whynots , with faces of so many people flashing before her eyes , with words of her people ringing in her ears. •


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