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«« when her life was at a halt , 
       an illusion of motion was created and
in her dreamlike state ,
        her reality and her imagination met
and gave her a blurred vision ,
        her phantasmagoria took birth where
her soul saw dreams of a lost world
         in its sleep  »»

" Phenakistoscope - an illusion of motion . Into the illusion of motion of a girl's halted world you'll peek into "

•This will be a little collection of thoughts that peeped through the glass stained window of my mind , of the memories I lived , and of the tales I participated in inside my mind .
These are poetries from a school girl with a backpack on , returning home with so much inside the head , with so much inside her heart , with the memories made each day , with the pain received yesterday , with the questions wondered -whys and whynots , with faces of so many people flashing before her eyes , with words of her people ringing in her ears. •


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Two baby girls are rescued, smuggled away in the middle of the night and are thrown into a world without their parents to guide them, the one good thing is that they have each other, they were taken together and left together, they grew up together and formed a bond that no one could break. But what if their lives were supposed to be different, what if the world they grew up in wasn't their true home. Fate steps in and through some bad choices and wrong turns, the girls, who are now adults fall into a world that seems so familiar. The dangers ahead are unknown, but the bond they have will protect them and make them stronger than even they realise. Their pasts will be revealed and the longing and dreams they have will suddenly manifest themselves with some shocking consequences. They will be thrown into the deep end and will be shown a life they were supposed to have, they will love, laugh and learn a lot about themselves, their families and their heritage. The past unfortunately will never be just that and a force from that will immerge which will threaten their entire existence and make them stand up and take charge of their own destiny. "No no nooooo not again pleeaaasssseee not again, she's going to kill me she is definitely going to kill me. Why do I pick them???? How the HELL do I pick them???? do they pick me??? do I have a tattoo on my forehead that says FUCK ME OVER. She sighed, Tash is going to kill me she thought. Tears stung her eyes as she made her way towards the flat they were sharing, they had moved there only 3 months prior, they had found jobs, they had started to build a life, why did she always have to spoil everything. She looked up at the window and the light was on, "CRAP" she hissed she was hoping that Tash had gone to bed and she could have snuck in and quietly cleaned herself up before she saw her, she hadn't a choice she had to go in and face her, Blue sighed and squared her shoulders, let's get this over with, she thought."

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I was kicked around like trash on the streets. I was the book that nobody could understand or read, but without a care, they were quick to rip out the pages. I screamed for attention, but time after time, I was ignored. Nobody noticed me, so I made myself at home in my own shadow. They say there's light at the end of the tunnel -- I searched and searched for it, but it could never be found. Therefore, I lost hope as I hid in the shade and endured what seemed like everlasting pain. The little hope I did have was snatched from my arms. My baby brother was my life, and they took my glimpse of hope away. Home. Is that a word? Maybe for a family of some kind, but for me, I never had a place to call home. I moved from place to place. Unstable foster care, fighting for my life in group homes, barely surviving in detention centers, and running away from being mistreated as I made many benches my temporary home. The only thing that I was familiar with was a black plastic bag containing my dirty rags. I am too young to know what it feels like to survive. These are the cards life has dealt me and I am not meant to win; however, I easily lose without trying. It is hard for me to find peace. I am paying for my mother's reckless actions. I am trapped in a world where the sun has died because I am unable to feel love. I am unable to dream. Sorrow is my aura, and the sadness hugs me. My eyes are closed shut by the barbed wire fence from my eyelashes as they prohibit tears from falling. I am damaged. When will the morning come? Did the sun put up a fight last night, like I do every single day? If I can survive the day, I know the sun isn't dead. One day, I will awake to a glorious sunrise. Until then, I hope my brother keeps blowing his pinwheel, and I will keep making wishes with every dandelion I come across. For now, all I know is that everything was taken from me, and the only thing I own is my name.

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