Alone again
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Ongoing6m
Last published Sun, Jan 19, 2014
Robyn's POV "Why can't I be perfect?" I screamed, my voice hoarse. "Why can't I stop the pain?" I stared into the empty room that once held the key to my happiness. "I try so hard" "Why did she leave me?" I walked into the bathroom. "It's my fault" I opened the cabinet, I caught a wisp of my reflection in the mirror. Broken. Pathetic. Fat. "Why me?" I reached to the back of the shelf, my fingers feeling for the packet with a sick sort of hunger. "Why?" I whispered popping the multicoloured tablets out the silver foil. One for sorrow Two for joy Three for a girl and Four for a boy Five for silver Six for gold Seven is a secret never to be told Eight is a wish And Nine is a kiss Ten is a bird you must not miss The foil packet slipped through my fingers and hit the floor. The children's rhyme ran through my head as I counted the tablets out. Finally the pain can end. I will be alone again.
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