The Little Boy I Ached To Be
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The past few days have been rough, I have come out as transgender to my friends but not to my family. Technically I already have but I was shot down on the spot, when I turn 18 I shall begin transitioning with the money I saved up over the years because my mother doesn't have a say in the situation. I tried to push the thought that a boy was trying to come out and embrace what I was meant to be born as, a boy. I can't wait and as i think of the idea that i'll be able to be who I've ached to be since the age of eight. I still feel very suicidal due to what little support I have within my family but I posted a new poem two hours ago {By the time you guys read this it should be three hours} explaining my situation. It is called 'The Little Boy I ached To Be', but thanks to my decision I now look forward to what the future may hold for Lloyd Alexander Bullard. Have a wonderful day everyone ♥
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