Joy Division, photos from 2005, coffee, art school, borderline personality disorder, CDs, sketches, insomnia, Boston, messy buns, Hayden who's life is actually going somewhere, leaves in your hair, desolate Minnesota, coffee creamer, takeout, expired drivers licenses, concept art, chopsticks, freaking Jack, earbuds, dumb Harry Potter references, sleep pants with Homer Simpson on them, depression, Florence's red head/red neck ex, school deadlines no one gives a crap about, animating, flippin' carpal tunnel, Reilly who keeps going on about how everyone is Darth Vader, those weird people at the coffee shop on 4th, the two cats, Micha who's gender fluid, that one Pan friend in your group, how Florence is an ass, more coffee, more takeout, mental breakdowns, and the freaking idiots at Walmart.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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